In a reflective talk today with my mom about my life and my feelings about myself, she said something that really stuck with me. "Loving yourself does not mean that you have to like everything about yourself. The things that you don't like about yourself, you can change." My mom had me when she was my age (24). She grew up not loving herself because of the actions of other people (family included). It wasn't until recently that she was even able to love herself and understand that she was worth being loved.
During our conversation, my mom brought a picture of her and her twin, my aunt Janine, into the room. After asking me which one was her (haha - she said she was the more "mature looking" of the two), she said that she wrote a letter to her self as a baby. In that letter, she spoke about how she let her down for not loving her enough. Not loving her in the way that she deserved to be loved. Not loving her in the way that all babies and all of God's children deserve to be loved. This spoke volumes to me so I went and pulled this picture up of myself.
The baby in that picture deserves to be loved. She deserves every GOOD thing this world has to offer. That baby though, is ME. I have to love her in the way that my mom and dad and stepdad love me. I have to love her MORE than that even. She deserves it & from this day forward, I will love her - unconditionally.
"...but all I can do, is just offer you my love."
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